The video still needs some tweaking… but time is marching on and seeing as it was supposed to be shared for her birthday…
do you ever wonder
what another ponders
and those that look back from inside the mirror
silence a lifetime’s worth of ticking
over short-comings and glory
is the tremor all terrific or more terror
is whatever that is more temporary or what feels like forever?
is it more worry than wonderful?
more doubt that definition?
more questioning than quotas?
more about our failings than about what floats us?
does the pretending that hides pain
bring tears that make eyes rain
and do dilated pupils
see no sun on the windowsills?
fields without daffodils?
always wanting another headache pill?
or maybe not as much distance…
between who you see and what you’ve got?
not so marooned
under midnight moons
and knowing that to empower the distance
is about embracing your duality
for creating from confluence
we are never fully that skin that we move in
that we wear to work or the pub or when in-laws come ‘round to celebrate with grub
for the loves
the variations we lead onlookers to believing
the many or minimal layers
that we thin or thick with
depending on who we’re thin-or-thick-as-thieve’ing with
so… what simpler explanation is there for duality
than what we put on the bench
biding bravado rather than benevolence…
to– and for our own selves?
yes You, in your small section of the world
or not remembering when last you genuinely felt proud…
you have a sound
to audiences as planned
and those that begin as unaware
present and gone
fury and fun
all of it is the Light of the Sun
even when it feels like the jump
before the gunshot has gone off…
sometimes the shepherd
others the sheep
always just fine
if we remember only
that we are omni
and that duality is no sin
it’s just vibration
others the shepherd
both are you
both are fine
because whether sheep or shepherd
you are always your shine
© Dylan Balkind